LOSING BUT NOT QUITE LOST
I hate to have to see you everyday,
Your like a smell that just won’t dissipate,
You sit and laugh not a care in your eyes,
You made me love and now it’s died,
Your past didn’t have to make you be,
What your dad was like just look at me?
I could have followed the stereotype,
But I’m too hungry & the fruit is ripe
Your broken now but alls not lost,
Im the reminder so count the cost,
Your losing now but not quite lost,
Let the world see what’s under the gloss,
Surely inside yourself you feel,
Don’t just rely on sex appeal,
You’ve been hurt before I know your pain,
But from footstep following you must refrain,
I still have faith that things will click,
And you’ll stop living life on a drip,
Embrace the path you could be on,
If your not too careful it will be gone
MESSAGE TO MUM
She’s been ground down with a mortar & pestle,
Existence was cruel with a father of metal,
No love from him neglecting her for the beer,
With a start like that all the hope disappeared,
Four children later and the cycle repeats,
He’s an alcoholic her face his fist meets,
I’m scared to come down, scared for my mum,
This is what it’s like in a house of no fun.
Your a queen in my eyes with nothing to prove,
You kept me afloat despite all that you went through,
Your a queen in my eyes and now I can see,
So give it all up I don’t want you to leave.
So now I’ve got an addictive personality,
It’s clear as the day it runs in the family,
The banker always wins oh when will she realise,
I just care for you and this ain’t a diatribe,
From debt comes stress from stress comes depression,
Depression turns to anger from pent up aggression,
I’ll be there for you like your always there for me,
I Just want to see you live out your days peacefully,
NEVER LOSE HOPE
A crime I once committed,
I shouldn’t have admitted,
My honesty had failed me,
Justice had impaled me,
A boy like me in a house of men,
My only respite was my pen,
But it’s times like that make you what you are,
You realise what you’ve lost when your sat behind bars.
I’m out of my depth not out of my mind,
Being stuck in a cell doesn’t make me blind,
I’m out of my depth not out of my mind,
But I knew it’d be myself I’d find
Who would’ve guessed all those years ago,
How far I’d come, how much I’d grow,
I’m driven by the thought of failing,
I’m ready to leave all my schoolmates trailing,
I don’t regret a single minute,
It’s because of the bad times that the sky is the limit,
So never lose hope and think you can’t change,
Just learn all life’s lessons as it’s all just a game.
MY MESSAGE TO THE WORLD
To quote a man who’d be seventy today,
Give peace a chance, religions to blame,
The wars that blight our tv screens,
From a lust for power twinned with greed,
Mother nature keeps lashing down,
Kids are dying in shanty towns,
A world with no money now there’s an idea,
Walk down back alleys without any fear.
Feels like the beginning of the end to me,
Freedom is overrated we’ll never be free,
Feels like the beginning of the end
Someone takes a beating but nobody speaks,
The world just turns the other cheek,
Was it really so different back in the day,
Doors left unlocked, while out for the day,
Everyone pulls together for the good of each other,
A girl makes you wait before you become lovers,
We’re blind to the issues that we face today,
So open your eyes if you want to stay
FRIENDS FOR THE WRONG REASONS
I still don’t hate you even though,
You didn’t want to see me grow,
Well now your lines are wearing thin,
Don’t try to find me in the bin,
So why the bitterness from me?
If you have to ask, you still don’t see,
See why i’m disappointed with you,
If the foot was in the other shoe,
You’d be so upset, have nowhere to turn,
But to me your just a part of the churn,
So now your left to count the cost,
Of a special friendship that you have lost.
TIME TO SHOW THE REAL ME
Insecurity shouts my name
A piece of fabric hides my shame,
A juggler like me should be on the stage,
Not incarcerated in a self made cage,
I’m strong for the world but inside I’m lost,
The mirror is where I count the cost,
I hope I’m not just a hopeless case,
An incarnation of the things I hate.
It’s time to be who I want to be,
It’s time to show the real me,
I can be that man, I can have it all,
I will fight until I climb the wall
A one to one would be a start,
A healthy mind, a healthy heart,
One day soon I can reach my goal,
My outside will be as pure as my soul
THE NEEDLE OF YOUR LOVE
Open up your mind and let me see,
I’m drowning in a sea of make believe,
Fantasist or realist which is me?
Explanations always come too late,
The needle of your love my heart deflates,
Can you pile any more upon my plate.
Please don’t come around my thoughts no more,
End the mental torture ive endured,
I’ve lost my faith in everything that’s pure.
The truth is that you’ve failed to understand,
The mindset of a disenchanted man,
Who only wants to die by his own hand.
